You May Die Today

In the big picture, what's it really matter?" I heard that comment in the barbershop today and it got me wondering. What does it all matter? The man who posited that question was talking about the Jayhawks loss in the first round of the NCAA Basketball tournament but I want to take it further. . .
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Does what we do here mean much . . . Do we really make that much a difference in the big picture. Does whether we win or lose the big game really mount to much? I mean, we are alive for such a blip of time. Think of it. How many people are leaving this plane of existence right now . . .and now. You no longer have property, you no longer walk the streets of your town, your favorite restaurant isn't yours anymore . . . people will cry at your passing, maybe even erect a monument or street sign but what did that life, your life, my life really accomplish?

If you were especially blessed you married and had children. If you ask me that is partly what the meaning of life is. Children have the amazing capacity to mirror our faults and our strong points. They come in to this world ready to work on themselves and they attack it with vigor. They are incredible at creating life, at imagining life, at causing life. But sometimes life beats us down and we lose that vigor. We become paralyzed with fear, we hesitate to hurt, to feel, to stumble . . .

What does our life matter in the big picture? I believe without a doubt that there is life after death. But I know I came here to learn, to grow, to change my focus, my karma, my breath, my brain's firings, the thing that makes me me, and keeps me from being me. I need to find my source . . . my binary code, my God.

Why?

because . . .

You may die today. . . live life for God's sake . . .

You may die today . . . what would you want read about you in the paper? . . .

You may die today . . . . what haven't you done that you want to do?

You may die today . . . What haven't you forgiven that needs forgiving and what haven't you apologized for that needs apologizing . . .

You may die today . . . Thank God for all your many blessings and give thanks for life because . . .

You may die today.

So never stop the inquiry, never stop the quest to be better, to learn more . . . to find God.

In thy wind - in Thy light-
How insignificant is everything else,
how small are we - and how happy in that which alone is great.

Dag Hammerskjold

A single point in time

What do we an encounter with the divine? The person who even for an instant is in touch with that pure timeless state that Buddhists call nirvana. It is the I AM, Saint Augustine called it "That Which Is"; Saint Bernard, "the Energetic Word", Hegel called it "Absolute Spirit", The Atman, Yahwah, Allah, Jehovah, Krishna, Vishnu, Buddha, Christ and the Holy Spirit. It is called Enlightenment, it is my Awakening. I am beginning to wake from lifetimes of slumber. Distractions abound but I pound on the walls of my skin, aching to get out. I hold, hold, hold it back, stemming the tide, the flood, the deluge of love, possibility, the spark that is within me, burning to infinite nothingness. aching for a wisp of wind to fan it's all, its nothing, knowing that once burning it is unquenchable.