Saturday I swallowed misplaced pride, jealousy and all round silliness and made a call that has freed up my clogged spirit.
One of My best friends in life has not truly been a part of my life for the last 10 years. Whoah! Just putting that in words is so hard to believe. You see Rich and I are friends that have gone through journies of being that create bonds at many different levels.
We were roomates in a house of 5 guys while going to school. During that time 3 of us delved into what the nature of reality was, who was God and just what the Hell is the meaning of life. I remember hours spent on our back porch shelling peanuts, drinking beer and engaging in awesome discourse. We even went so far as to try an alternate sleep schedule to stimulate our spiritual creativity. We'd get up 3 or 4 hours after going to bed, study, eat, talk and then sleep for a few more hours. Simply put we would sleep 3 times in a 24 hour time period. It absolutly stimulated dreams but wasn't the best for making sure I got to my 7:30am class on time.
As I recalled it lasted about 1 month.
Another venture we had was to develop our ability to control our dreams and achieve frequent lucid dreaming states. This was very succesful but what it really did was pave the way for Out of Body Experiences, OBEs for short. We had incredible journies, altered states and spiritual epiphanies.
Another incredible shared eperience was with several of the courses offered by Landmark Education. These were courses that revolved around what it means to be human. The study of Ontology. They were incredible ventures that pushed me to the limits. I never have been more fulfilled, I never have been so scared. They truly have allowed me to create incredible possibities. But it all ended when Rich left town. I had some strange kind of shift go on, and as always happened in my life when someone left town, I slowly withdrew communication. In short, I've had an incredible breakthrough as to why I do this and I'll write more on this in a future blog. But it's been a couple of weeks since I started writing and need to post this blog.
I called Rich and in over an hour and a half conversation made peace, caught up, and forged a new friendship. He's an amazing human being on an amazing journey of self discovery and a journey toward God.
Peace
Neil
Monday, December 20, 2004
Saturday, December 18, 2004
Authentic Ramblings
What the Bleep
I saw a movie not to long ago that got me wondering about reality. Does what we see, hear, feel and experience have any basis in reality or is it all experiential? The movie was called What the Bleep Do We Know?
It posited that our thoughts and feelings about ourselves, our environment and the people around us were shaped and affected at the quantum level. For instance, my turning 40 a couple years back seemed to start a cascade of ailments. A bad knee, migraines, etc. When I really took a look at my belief system surrounding the fact that I turned 40, some of the hidden conversations in my head surprised me. I was actually telling myself that it was time to stop taking risks physically as my body was getting old, easily broken and weak. As soon as I recognized those thought patterns (aided by my incredibly loving and powerful wife Tricia) I stopped having all the symptoms, stopped taking all the medications and have lost 30 pounds. How's that for perceptions and internal conversations affecting reality!
I really believe, and as you can see, have experienced that as human beings, we have enormous power that has been untapped. Being able to develop that through awareness is part of the attraction of this inward focus. Just by thinking about it, we can make changes. The more we become aware of our life shaping ability, the more we see, acknowledge and accept those changes. It becomes a steamroller in the sense that our reality positively feeds back a response.
Our very words and thoughts move nature to respond in kind. Say a kind word . . . if only to yourself.
I saw a movie not to long ago that got me wondering about reality. Does what we see, hear, feel and experience have any basis in reality or is it all experiential? The movie was called What the Bleep Do We Know?
It posited that our thoughts and feelings about ourselves, our environment and the people around us were shaped and affected at the quantum level. For instance, my turning 40 a couple years back seemed to start a cascade of ailments. A bad knee, migraines, etc. When I really took a look at my belief system surrounding the fact that I turned 40, some of the hidden conversations in my head surprised me. I was actually telling myself that it was time to stop taking risks physically as my body was getting old, easily broken and weak. As soon as I recognized those thought patterns (aided by my incredibly loving and powerful wife Tricia) I stopped having all the symptoms, stopped taking all the medications and have lost 30 pounds. How's that for perceptions and internal conversations affecting reality!
I really believe, and as you can see, have experienced that as human beings, we have enormous power that has been untapped. Being able to develop that through awareness is part of the attraction of this inward focus. Just by thinking about it, we can make changes. The more we become aware of our life shaping ability, the more we see, acknowledge and accept those changes. It becomes a steamroller in the sense that our reality positively feeds back a response.
Our very words and thoughts move nature to respond in kind. Say a kind word . . . if only to yourself.
Thursday, December 16, 2004
The Possibilites Are Endless!!
I've been contemplating starting a blog for several years now but have been somewhat hesitant to do so. I've gone through several rationales both pro and con. I won't detail my thought process but suffice it to say that each and everyone of us has something to say and what we say makes a difference in life with people.
It's only through speaking that we touch the fabric of our world. Truly, by speaking we set in motion the ability to create our reality, the ability to affect our universe and the charge to make a difference in the world. This blog will be a reflection of my speaking in the world. It will reflect the ownership of my voice, my power and my responsibility in the world. One of the possibilities I am in life is the possiblity of love in action through communication. I thank you for giving me the space and the honor of your listening.
Neil
It's only through speaking that we touch the fabric of our world. Truly, by speaking we set in motion the ability to create our reality, the ability to affect our universe and the charge to make a difference in the world. This blog will be a reflection of my speaking in the world. It will reflect the ownership of my voice, my power and my responsibility in the world. One of the possibilities I am in life is the possiblity of love in action through communication. I thank you for giving me the space and the honor of your listening.
Neil
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